Okay... not sure how much writing I have left in me at the moment, I seem to have done nothing but all day. I put today aside for some me time so despite the lovely weather I've been in my room all day. Normally I'd be dying to get out and do something in the sunshine, but it's been so long since I just stopped that I feel a whole lot better for doing nothing all day. I say nothing, of course I have been doing things, creative things- reading, writing, playing music, thinking... mixed in with the odd household chore of course. Anyway, where was I? Let me see...
Anyway, in his book The Fall Steve Taylor tells of a time before religion when gatherer-hunter groups lived all over the world in peaceful isolation from each other. When human crossed paths they helped each other, and there is no evidence of violence or war from this period. Nobody owned land, nobody had possessions (other than pieces of cloth to wear and things they crafted themselves) and nobody needed or owned weapons. Men and women lived as equals and there is even some evidence that females were dominant and worshiped. Then came "The Fall" and the rise of the human ego. I really wish I had the book to hand because I can't remember the detail of what caused it, but the bottom line is that men then claimed land, possessions and women, and the strong started to wield power. I'm fascinated by it.
I'd love to be able to return to a world where people didn't fight, mug, steal, bribe or kill just to buy the latest iPod/phone/flatscreen tv. None of that stuff means anything to me. I get my joy from music, from creating music, from seeing wonderful things, from having special moments with people and sharing precious memories with friends. I always said I don't need anything other than a roof over my head and a guitar. Nothing else matters, although obviously love and friendship are great comforts. That said, they bring their own difficulties. I often wonder if the life of solitude is perhaps the happiest of all. Otherwise aren't we simply just jumping from circumstance to circumstance to try to slay the previous problem?
I love the movie Into the Wild. Despite the unhappy ending, that sort of life really appeals to me. To just disappear into nature and live from of social restrictions and expectations. To fend for yourself, make your own moments and answer to no one. Can there be anything more perfect than that?
I suppose there can. That moment with a special someone. That feeling of security and affection. The thought of building a dream together and not having to be alone.
Uh... okay, I seem to have entered my head a little too deeply.
